Okay to start off, I didn't grow up and have anything sexually traumatizing happen to me when I was younger to make me this way. It just happened. I don't mind a guy using me for sex, that's all they want anyway, right? It seems like all the guys that are my type---that's all they want from girls. So why not just give it to them? I'm currently sleeping with 3 guys. (2 are in the same friend group). I feel like men will always be primarily sexual creatures, I've seen so many instances where guys pretend and show off to be in love with their girlfriends but would still cheat on them with other girls (and their girlfriends would still have sex with them) so it's like wow...I've given up on relationships. I've completely numbed myself. At this point I really don't think I can be in love or even feel love for an individual (besides my parents). I'm 18. But I've given up: