Any way to stop hating myself?

Question

Almost 17 and I really hate my body. Always waited for some change bcs of puberty, like "it's gonna get better" but now I'm so sure it won't.
Asymmetric and really different eyes, really too big nose and two front teeth growing onto each other which makes me not able to let me smile without covering my face, too large neck, different breasts (realized it only today and feel worse than ever), I've got at least 5 kg more weight than I should, fat legs just because of fucking genetics. Hair, hair everywhere. I have to shave my hands on top side, neck and between lips and nose, and there is no possible way for me to shave arms, so they remain fucking hairy. I just can't handle it all. Pimples are on the face, neck and shoulders, my face from aside looks awful and I totally can't control my hair (got a shorter haircut and took a shower after that - hair looks so awful). And that's not even everything.
Understood that I can't feel normal in a society where I just see everyone be at least normal for a couple of year's ago and went over to antisocial internet life, never showing my face and creating freinds all over the world not based on my appearance IRL. Just felt kind of okay with a thought that I'm never gonna get any relationship ever, didn't feel like I needed it. And then met a person on internet who just fell in love with me. Now I wonder if it was wrong to let myself fall in love with him too. We're together for almost a year, he sais that he likes my body, but fuck, there are 3000 km between us. He've never even seen me IRL and still is so certain that when I come to him for three days in June (blame myself for  arranging that, but I feel like I can't stand that _love_ without even being able to hug each other anymore) nothing in our feelings will change. All those kinds of virtual sex with only voice feels so pervert, him begging me to send pics of my breasts because he's really obsessed with that and can't help it, all that.. I begin to hate myself even more.
Just want to stop all of that, hide in some box and live there my life without seeing anyone at all. It feels so painful to think that I'll have to live with this body until I die and I can't even think of suicide ("why not if you don't enjoy life", I thought) because I'm too weak and I still have my family and him, I can't let them, well, suffer.
So I just live like this, hide my face 24/7 and feel horrible all the time especially when I'm not in my room (highschool is still there) smiling in Skype with the person who really loves me and not letting myself to show him what I really think.
I don't think I can handle this anymore. You can say "all of that is normal", but I do see people around me and they all,  ALL look so much better than me.
And yeah, my boyfriend looks really amazing. When he sais "the only thing that can destroy our IRL meeting is if you won't like me" I have to force myself not to laugh.

That's just unfair.

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I think it has a great deal to do with how you view your body and not so much about what you actually look like.
I have a conventionally normal to pretty face and body, always had, and I was still super insecure from my 10th to my 19th. I think it has a lot to do with personal growth, I personally have grown into a much more adult person over the last year or so, which resulted in a much more positive self-image.
Mostly my advise would be to just wait it out. It gets easier with time. Also try and find outfits that you feel good in and just wear the hell out of them. No one is going to care if you wear the same sweater 3 days in a row, trust me. And try to find situations where you either feel confident in at least some part of yourself and place yourself in them as much as possible. I love making music and playing the piano was always my happy place. Maybe you have a hobby or can find one that makes you either forget about things you are insecure about or makes you feel better about those things.
Also, surround yourself with positive! The more positive people in your life, the better you're going to feel. The best example I have here is an ex of mine who had a thing for bellies, which was the last major body part of myself that I had a lot of trouble coming to terms with. Him almost admiring mine made a really big difference to me.

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Babe I know you don't want to hear it but we all go through times like this I had acne so bad at 17 I had no family lived.in a.shithole.with 2 weirdo roommates and just wanted.it it all be over the thing is you have to find something thay you enjoy doing work hard to get really good at it and it will fill thay time and space you spend thinking about your.looks we are so much more than what you see on the outside and not enough people teach that I am so sorry you feel this way but I will tell you if he loves you for you its not going to change when he sees you life is so hard as it is and you are putting too much pressure on yourself now is the time to work tward.a.gteat.career so you can buy a house and a car and live a happy life feeling fulfilled by your actions not your looks and really everything you have said can be tweaked once you start making money trust me.babe when your.40 and look back on this time.you will laugh at youeself a little bit think of it this way when you have a daughter do you.want her to judge herself so harshly probably not work hard on the future you then you can t week the crap that bugs you bur I know once you are.done with collage it won't seem so bad I love you for you.i know you.will do great things in this world.have compassion for pee and give that guy the benifit of the doubt he loves who you are not what you look like

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Sweetie we ALL have things we hate about ourselves and wish we could change but we can't. I could make a long list of the things I don't like about myself but I definitely can't change those things without painful expensive surgery. But am I going to dwell on the negatives? Hell no. Even tho it does bother me sometimes, I HAVE to focus on the positives. You have to focus on the positive things about you. Everyone is deserving of love. If you have a beautiful heart and personality, that's honestly all that matters. Confidence is sexy. Being a good person is sexy.

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I bet you're exaggerating. We as people have the tendency to pick out our flaws and blow them up, we even pick flaws that aren't even there 
You're eyes are different?! That's amazing! Your boobs are different sizes who care! That is so normal it's actually rare to have exact boobs (mine are one and a half cup sizes different) if you're worried about the hair wax or get laser then its permanently gone you legs are perfect your teeth perfect you in general perfect 
The acne is because you're a teenager and also could be stress, there are creams that are so helpful for it!

As I said I bet you're picking on flaws that don't even exist 
I bet you're actually gorgeous in real life and if this boyfriend doesn't think so then he isn't worth it

Any way to stop hating myself?

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