I posted in a previous post about my ectopic on how I was told that my baby was just a ball of cells. I wanted to share my story that my baby did exist and that I would do anything to have him or her back. Suffering from a ectopic pregnancy is the worst thing that I've experienced in my life especially since this was going to be my first baby. Not only did I lose the baby but also my fallopian tube. I do not cry as much anymore because this happened in December but it still bothers me until this day that I still think about my child 24/7. The father of my baby grew up without a dad and was excited to become a father for the first time it breaks my heart knowing that it didnt happen but it is what it is and and we feel him or her with us a lot. I'm sorry for you other ladies who went through the same thing and also experienced a loss this was my first and to  it is very devastating. I do not have any scans of my baby all I have are my positive pregnancy test that I took I still have them but it's hard for me to look at them I just keep them in my drawer and that is the only thing that I have are those two lines. My baby had a mommy and daddy that was supposed to be held and to be loved it breaks my heart. I am attached to somebody who I never even met held or seen yet and it is the worst pain ever until it is my time to go. I would've been five months by now and would've known the gender but I am trying again for my rainbow and I'm sorry for you other ladies who also suffered from a pregnancy loss. God bless