So we have been TTC for 22 months 6 months on Metformin and 4 months of letrozole and trying <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>. This last month we couldn't try <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> because I couldn't get my letrozole due to Presidents' Day. Needless to say husband and I agreed maybe it was a good time for a "break" of the same routine...... about a week after deciding to try things "more naturally" husband and I had a serious talk (and I'm sure I'm not the only one who has experienced this) husband informed me I'm "not who I used to be" I don't laugh and joke, pick on him or just relax and have fun like I used to. (As much as this hurt that I had changed into a complete stranger I NEEDED to hear this) so I prayed to God and really worked on changing my mindset to positive thoughts every time I saw a pregnant woman's picture or a new baby.... and then about a week ago I crashed and burned and was back at square one all over again. My husbands best friend and his wife had their baby and I lost it. I was resentful towards them and angry with God all over again. A few days ago another friend had their baby and again the same emotions. I feel like I terrible human because I haven't even had the courage to "congratulate" them because every time I see pictures I immediately start crying and fill myself with self pity, anger and resentment. Another hard thing is we live 2000k+ miles away from family (husbands military, so not really by choice) and I really need a friend or family's love and support (besides my amazing husband who is there for me 24/7) I'm so tired of feeling like a sad mopey pathetic blob of a person. How do I change my mindset besides constantly reaffirming positive thoughts and praying? How do I dig myself out of this deep dark hole? I'm just struggling and felt the need to share.