testing obsession 😢😢

Ashley
I'm really struggling , I've had two miscarriages, one in June and one just in January. And now im obsessively testing, AF is due this weekend and I'm almost positive I'm not pregnant, but so want to be. It's really difficult to let go!! I'm also going to pick up the remains of our baby we lost in January tomorrow. Just venting really. Can anyone relate to the obsessive testing? I feel crazy.Â