best/worst sex! πŸ€”πŸ˜πŸ˜­ (long story)

So my boyfriend and I had such a wonderful day yesterday, and wanted to top it off with a great night full of ice cream, cuddles and love making since I just got off my period! However, through out the night my happiness began to fade due to being tired, and I for some reason began to feel a bit agitated. Maybe because I was so tired but I didn't want to be rude to him because he was so sweet to me and being so nice! Anyways, I'm basically falling asleep in his arms while he gets all touchy feely and I show that I like it and it takes off from there. But I felt very disconnected and having a hard time feeling it but that was normally for me, as I don't really FEEL the pleasure and mood until it really starts up. He puts it in and I'm not sure if it's because I was on my period or I was tired or not in the mood, or all of the above but it hurt pretty bad, and he sensed that. We tried everything we could before I just had to pull out. I felt the passion and desire to love him and do those things with him, but the pain and frustration that it wasn't working made it feel forced and uncomfortable. We "fall asleep" since we slept terrible, until he wakes up and I try to be sexy once more since I was determined at this point to please him and I both. I wasn't making it a mission to where "I'm gonna please us not matter what!!" because that would take away the meaning. So I go down on him, kissing and biting him all over and just hearing him love it made me so happy and horny! 😍 He eats me out, and we finally try one more time and yes it hurt but it was something that I know I could power through. (Side note: I tend to only cum with clit stimulation most of the time so my clit has to be hit on someway eith by him thrusting or me/him touching.) The pleasure is fading and I feel myself tightening in an uncomfortable way. Then, he touches the very tip of my clit, and it's like I couldn't catch my breath it felt so good! That kicked things off but since he hadn't cum in a week because of my period, he pulled out many times because of fear of cumming. He even went away to clean up to make sure he doesn't get any cum anywhere near the danger zone. Anyway he comes back and he does me from behind and it felt good, but I wasn't touching my clit because I wanted to try to cum from just pure penetration. It starts to hurt so I ask if he can do me off the edge of the bed. He hits the PERFECT SPOT EVERY THRUST!!! 😭😍🀀 He grabs my legs and props them on his shoulders, and he looks like the sexiest thing while making love to me! Every thrust shoots up into my throat to where I can't breath, and I never want it to stop!! My breast bounce like crazy, my moans turn to gasps of air and his whole body and look topped it all off!!! However, this is when panic struck; when I heard the words "I'm gonna cum" followed by "I'm cumming!!" about 5 seconds later. Once I heard that, I thought "forget just penetration, I'm cumming!" So I try to reach for my clit as fast as I could so we could have that wonderful cum at the same time moment, but it was too late. The pleasure stopped, and I wanted to start sobbing. I have never had this happen to me, but I just wanted to cry because it felt so good and I was so close, but I didn't cum. I couldn't hide the sheer disappointment on my face because I was focusing on not crying. He looks at me and asks me "what's wrong why are you crying?!" Before I even started and I didn't know what to say or how to explain it so I just said "I'm not crying it's okay" because I didn't want him to feel bad for cumming because if he feels bad, what was the point?! So I sucked it up, had to kiss that magical tease of a climax good bye and we had tea and cuddled while the sun came up. ☺️ Now I want to clarify something, we DO NOT have sex just for pleasure! It is so so so much more than that! We try to make it as special as possible! But, we have two different kinds of sex, sweet and naughty. We were in the naughty mood tonight so the fact that it started off with pain and blue balls, then only him cumming while I don't was very discouraging. My main motivation is to please him, and his is to please me, so when one of us doesn't cum, we feel bad and want to fix it, hense why I tried again for round too. But I didn't only do it because I felt bad bc then it wouldn't be special. I did it because I wanted to experience with him again. 😊 sorry for being so long and all the disclaimers, I just didn't want anyone to get the wrong idea.Β