sad times

My mum is having a very serious  operation ,I am so worried and I feel bad because I am ill as well so I can't really help out ,which really hurts me and also my crush going out with my best friend ,seriously all I can do right now is cry myself to sleep every night ,I don't know what to do ,I can't tell any of my friends because it is a family thing and whenever they ask me what is wrong I can't tell them😥😥