Had a painful sexual mishap and it's ruined me? 😥 tmi!

So okay that's a bit of an exaggeration but what I mean to say is that I was making out with my boyfriend and we were getting frisky and he did two fingers without it hurting (for the first time like ever, it usually hurts because usually we just rush into it too fast) anyway so it was great until he was trying to take them out and it hurt so FREAKIN bad. Before this like I was just so psyched for the idea of us having sex along the line and I was thinking of doing it for our one year  and like. I have never masturbated in my life and like I started a couple weeks ago and it was great but ever since the pulling out pain thing happened, I literally can mess around solo for several minutes and barely get wet like.... I would say not at all but I think like once I managed it. It's like my body is like nah no thank you! I know this is super tmi but like I am so scared this like messed me up and I don't know how to like not feel freakin terrified about actually having sex? Uuugh. I was like extremely about to be ready for sex, and that was  a huge step because I was so sex repulsed and grew up my whole school life in a high school that taught us sexual thoughts were a sin and like all that was so evil and it took like 9 months of talking to/then officially dating for me to finally warm up to the sheer idea and like now? I feel like I just fell down the whole staircase it took almost a year to climb up 😥 EDIT:: Also it's just crazy because getting wet is usually the opposite of the issue. My boyfriend and I actually joke around about how I can get wet in like no time flat, even from the beginning of our relationship and even in .. solo play I like to call it lol.  so it's just so worrying to be like. Not like that 😱