Love Triangle
I am 37 with a husband and two daughters. I've been married eight years. I love my life, but I'm no longer "in love" with my husband. We have built a beautiful home and life together and my children could not be happier. I've told my husband numerous times, I want to feel LOVE and he says we are past that stage. He focuses on making sure we are financially stable and does an awesome job growing successfully and encouraging my growth as well.
The flip side: almost two years ago I ran into a guy on my job whom I was immediately attracted to. He felt the same attraction and about three weeks later transferred to my unit. We instantly became close friends as I was married and he was always respectful of my marriage.
I was promoted and he asked to be placed on my team and he was, so I became his supervisor back in May 2016. In November, our team went on a business trip and it was the first time I spent time with him outside of work. For all the time that I knew him, I felt something but didn't realize it was love until one day, after the trip he took one day off and my heart missed him. I touched myself to the thought of him and after that there was nothing I wanted more.
I tried to ignore the feeling and quiet the thoughts about him. Then one day, we kissed and it was honestly MAGICAL. We were open about our feelings toward one another and he said he always liked me, but thought it would never happen the day I showed him my ring and said I was married. He shared with me that he too had touched himself to the thought of me and it was in the same room at work.
Meanwhile, at home my husband had said something really damaging about feeling more vaginal resistance from his ex. Honestly, that hurt so much it pushed me into another man's arms and then bed.
We wrote about our feelings for one another and he was so raw and honest that I stopped fighting against my feelings for him and allowed myself to have sex with him and sadly fall deeply in love. At first, I just wanted another man's opinion on how I felt. When he called my name, kissed and made love to me the in the ways he has, I just couldn't stop. I just felt truly appreciated as a woman.
I added this app with the hopes and desires of having his child. We talked about us being together and his final decision was that he is too unsure whether he can handle going from a single 27 y/o man to married with two step children. He wants to date other women in the hopes of finding an available, single woman without a family to build with like I was able to do at his age.
I appreciate his honesty and that's the kind of man he is, it's why I fell for him. I am just very sad. I am trying my best to accept the circumstances in that I still really love this man and every fiber in me wants his child, but I'm trying so hard to give myself the respect I deserve and move on. I just needed to get this out I guess.
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