I just had a miscarriage a few days ago....I still have lingering sadness in me, but I am grateful it happen earlier than later. When I first found out, I was so shocked yet happy. My boyfriend and I were excited yet didn't know how to wrap the fact that I was pregnant. We've thought about names and talked about how that baby will look like. I began looking at baby stuff and getting super excited!! I only told my sisters and a few other people I was expecting. I didn't want to release the news until we found out the sex. But I didn't make it past my first trimester to learn whether my baby was a boy or girl. I made sure I rested and ate all the foods I craved :) I loved sleeping and my boyfriend would hold my tummy(baby). We were going to be a family!! Our little family, I loved the thought of it. But when we went in for our first ultrasound....they couldn't find a heartbeat. I was in denial and told them to keep looking. They showed me the pictures of no growth in 9 wks and no sign of life....I went out to the waiting room and told my bf the news :( I was miscarriaging. Next thing you know later that day....it was red everywhere. It happen. Our baby, gone. It wasn't meant to be. I wish I knew why things like this happen. But all I can do is accept and move on. I'm just grateful to experience what it was like pregnant.  I'm doing okay now. I will never forget. It was a blessing. I don't regret it. We will try again soon :) just gotta let these hormones pass by and I'm sad my boob will probably shrink! They were amazing while pregnant, lol. So to recap, I am grateful to have been a mom for a short moment. I loved the little thing growing inside of me. I want to be more positive than negative from the outcome.