I've been feeling so down lately. I don't know why. I don't think there's a simple answer, I guess it's just everything piled up? I'm just tired of everything and I don't really care about anything anymore, not even myself. I just don't want to feel anything anymore. It seems like life has nothing more to offer me but a series of unfortunate events. No one notices either. It's like I'm drowning and they're oblivious. I don't really expect them to notice I guess, I get it, people aren't mind readers. But it'd be helpful if they did .. because maybe if someone noticed how badly I'm hurting or how alone I feel or how desperately I'm crying for help, they'll help. God knows I won't ask for it. I can't really talk about the things that go on in my head. I'm not living, just merely existing and I feel so empty. I don't know what I really need. I don't even really know why I'm writing this. I guess o just need some way to find release because I hold so much in. I feel like I'm going to explode. I feel alone. And most of all hopeless. I've been fighting these feelings for a while. Desperately trying to "get over it". I can't and I'm not sure I ever will. Things are just so bad right now and honestly I'm losing sight of why I'm still putting up with it. It's certainly not for me. How long do I have to keep fighting before it's okay to give up?