It's amazing how much two words can rip your heart apart

It's amazing how one day can can change your life

I have always believed God is in control 

But yet I still don't understand how he works

It's a mystery as to why he does what he does

But I will still keep the faith..

I have lived my life saying In his time

But in the back of my mind I wish his time was my time

I know I'm strong

But sometimes strength only lasts so long

They ask me why do you have to have a child, and all I can do is scream because it's my dream! 

I am a woman who feels empty without a child, my husband helps pull me together and stick by me, but I know that it's secretly killing him inside. 

He see's the disappointment on my face and the pain in my tear stained eyes, 

And I hate that it hurts so bad

But I can't help that I get mad

Month by month

Year by year

My heart is breaking 

And I can't hold back my fears..

Why won't God give me a child, I try not to be upset..

But I know that God knows best and thats why my anger towards him I regret..