I'm not going to test this month

Last cycle, I tested 5 or 6 times and got 1 false grey positive and the rest negative. It broke my heart and I cried when my period showed. This month, I'm not going to test. I want to say every month, but I think I should take it one month at a time. So this month Im not going to test. I stopped taking prenatals a few months ago. My whole like was surrounded by trying to conceive and being broken hearted when I got a negative. I'm going to focus more on myself and have some fun with my wonderful man. Good luck to the ladies trying to conceive and baby dust