Vagina Insecurities

I have been with my man for a year now. We moved in together like 3 weeks ago and it has been awesome. The first night, I showered and shaved since my hair were growing back & of course I wanted to be perfectly smooth all around now that we would be having sex freely in our own place. He always says how he loves my body and everything but I feel so insecure sometimes when he wants to fuck with the lights on.

I feel insecure because # 1, I'm not thin. I'm also not fat. I'm like just chubby. Lol. But still is rather be much more slimmer. Anyways, I'm pretty okay with my body, what brings my insecurities is my vagina.

He likes to fuck me when he's on top and likes to spread my legs open and look at my vagina take his Dick in. I get so shy and try to like idk lol. Like my Vag is a bit darker than my skin complexion all around so I wonder if he like thinks it's dirty cause it doesn't look like the vaginas in porn🤔🙄

Another thing, he's gone down on my like maybe 4 time in our whole year relationship. He said he's not really a fan of it but I love it! What can I do?!?! I know i don't smell out of the ordinary. I know he watches lesbian porn so idk if vaginas in porn have set out a high expectation but I like my pussy ate!!!!!