Ok. I've never been too eager to get a child cz I am not sure if I can be a good Mum. I don't mind if I have a child or not (am 35 and my SO is 41) . We've been trying for two years with no pressure and I finally got pregnant in February. I was happy but not over the moon happy ( I don't know why 😭😭) . Unfortunately I got a miscarriage and I got very very sad and angry. Now I am just there, we are not using protection but am not too exited to put my mind that we are "trying". I guess am just afraid to be disappointed 😔 and would rather have thick skin just incase. I've been brought up in a very very strict family and grew up with fear of not doing the right thing. ( am trying to deal with that too). My SO wants children but he does not pressure me. I want to provide the best for my children we save, we have a house and we have some investments but I always feel it may not be enough for the children (My siblings and I had it rough growing up). What's wrong with me 😭😭😔😔.