I missed miscarried at six weeks in April. It hurt my heart. I found out I was pregnant this march and at 5weeks 6 days my hcg was at 41,115 and progesterone at 25. I starting having symptoms of morning sickness, hunger, and fatigue. Today at six weeks I woke up and nothing. I wasn't even hungry and instead I was extremely hormonal. I'm started stressing out and had an anxiety attack. Instead of letting my partner console me, I react in fear and anger and yelled at him to the point that he's not answering my calls and told me he was done with my bullshit. 

So now I'm roaming the internet and crying my eyes out because I'm so scared I'll fuck up again and I can't even run to my one support system because he won't speak to me.

I can't pretend like nothing is wrong or everything is ok. 

Symptoms should be here. With our ten year old I was sick exactly at six weeks. With our girl lily (we lost at 20 weeks) I was sick at five weeks. Here I am, sick yesterday and starving and today nothing. 

I'm just really scared guys.