I used to be such a good house wife, but in the past year or so I've just gotten lazy. My husband and I have been together for almost 6 years. We've lived together for 4 1/2 of those years. We got engaged in 2014, married in 2015, but literally nothing has changed other than me finishing school and now working 2 jobs. I used to keep the house clean, clean up after the roommates we used to have (they would never clean up after us, but hey I'm a nice person), every Sunday after work I would clean the house, I worked out everyday, and now I've gained 30 pounds and struggle to keep it off when I do lose it. I was in school everyday from 8-5, work from 5-10, and STILL kept the house cleaned and laundry done. I work less now that I'm out of school and I am my own boss. I do hair. I don't know if it's the stress of struggling to build a clientele in my area, bills, the fact everyone around me is pregnant and having babies and I just had surgery because I have endometriosis and haven't been able to get pregnant. I won't make my husband clean. He tries to help, but when you have my type of anxiety no one knows how you like things done. I was put on Wellbutrin XL in December. I think it helps. I used to not be like this, and I want to be the person I was 5 years ago. My husband says he notices I don't smile as much as I used to. I was a fireman for 5 years. I went to EMT school. I've seen more tragedy in my 23 years than most people see in a lifetime. I know how to handle myself in stressful situations, but for some reason I can't handle myself as a normal functioning human being. I just feel like a slob, and I know I can't be the only woman who feels like this.