I hate sex with my husband

I hate having sex with my husband, I know, that's horrible. I love him, but it's just like he doesn't turn me on anymore. 
He has never given me an orgasm. I feel nothing when we kiss, it's gross when we make out. It doesn't feel good when he goes down on me, I have no interest in sex with him anymore. 
We talked and talked about it but it doesn't change. We tried romance, dates, just letting it happen, foreplay, no foreplay, everything. We even tried toys and nothing works. I seriously love him but I don't think I'm sexually attracted to him anymore 
We don't live within 100 miles of a sex therapist nor do I want to go to one