we received heartbreaking news

Amy • Mother to Rowan and koda 🌈 🦋 anencephaly awareness 💚
We had our ultrasound today at 12 weeks 5 days and our little baby has a birth defect called anencephaly, we are absolutely devestatrd and heartbroken. We have decided not to further the pregnancy  and are scheduled tomorrow for a d&c. I don't know how I'm going to do this. I love this baby with all of my heart. I feel so broken and empty and I don't want to say goodbye. I was so scared to love him for fear of losing him and after our last two miscarriages we thought he was our rainbow baby. I  at a loss for words but I love our beautiful baby   Rowan Menno Froese