so a month ago, a guy i was completely in love with killed himself. we were best friends for almos 7 years, and i was completely in love with him. i would've done anything for him, and he was always on my mind. anything i did, i did it with him in mind. we both always had feelings for each other, but we always jus stayed friends. we were kinda best friends with benefits. but i thought that i'd marry him one day. i just saw that in our futures.. but now he's gone, and i'm having the hardest time with it..