My baby Boy!

My baby came 5 1/2 weeks early. He's doing fine except for some jaundice levels being high. But I feel so guilty. People keep telling me that it's common for premies. And I do understand that. But the reason i feel guilty is because my body couldn't hold him until full term safely. So now he's stuck under a light all by himself. I can't hold him like I want too. And I'm trying so hard to get to breastfeed him but he just doesn't want to latch. I keep trying to pump but it doesn't won't to pump much. Then now that he's early I feel like I have been robbed from some of my pregnancy. Now it makes me question weather I do want to get fixed now. After holding him and having a chance to love him. Even though me and my husband thought we were done having kids. We already had 2 and didn't want more. But I am very grateful to have him.