I guess I'm still looking for people to tell me how good I am doing in life but they only see me as they downfall. My mom told me just now "I wish I could've had a miscarriage" "if I knew you was going to be a problem I would have wrapped the cord around your neck" "I wish I could have picked up on something heavy". My dad tells me"you are my downfall in life" "if it wasn't for your mom you wouldn't be here and the only reason you are here is because your mom wouldn't leave me alone. he said " I gave your momma a baby so she can leave me alone" I heard that for so many years, even in conversations I would hear this repeatedly. I paid all my life for their mistakes. He allowed so much to happen to me only to tell me"that has nothing to do with me". It was all about money to the both of them. My Father did enough to stay off child support. I developed mental illness and anxiety disorders out the house for so many years. Whatever I had going for myself they would make phone calls to take it away. I was never allowed to have anything on my own. I was never allowed any mental help. Both of my parents didn't allow it because they wanted to control. Whatever destruction was available they was opened to it. I talked to my aunt after so many months and nothing changed. I got nominated to the FBI citizen academy and I even got the word independent attached to my name on my FAFSA. Nobody gives a damn. No matter if you hate me or not I'm going to tell you achievements. I haven't talked to this family in months. I haven't talked to my sister in months either. It always felt like I have another family out here. They tried they best to destroy my life because they didn't want me. Sad part about it is it wasn't them who came in and saved me from them.