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1 Year & 1 Month TTC.. Robot Mode

So I'm not really holding my breath anymore, I've passed the stage of being able to care if I'm pregnant or not.

I just expect to get my period every month now, I don't like to analyse my symptoms too much, because they are always the same before AF shows. Maybe that's a good thing though, I really know my body now.

But then some months my boobs hurt more then others and I'm like ooooh *glimmer of hope*.. then the next day AF arrives. So I'm ignoring all symptoms. The only one I'm focused on looking for is the non existence of AF.

I know it will happen, just not when I expect it. God will bless me with a child when he knows I'm ready. Which gives me peace. But I feel like I'm running on empty these days, my partner doesn't seem to understand and I feel alone in this journey.

My emotions have become almost robot like, I'm just running through the motion without being aware of what's really happening.

Any other 'robots' out there? I'm probably the only one.

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