So I finally picked up my meds today and just as thenoharmacist placed them all on the table, it felt so surreal and it really hit home . The reality of this process dawned on mr and i cried my way home with my huge cooler bag. I panicked and became very afraid asking myself if I am ready. I know that I am . I have been ready for a while but I am scared. I can only just pray and have faith that it will all work out in the end. Starting stims on sunday and I am getting excited again. 

#sigh