I want a baby so bad that in my free time I look at positive pregnancy tests on google... I've been pregnant 6 times. I lost 5 of them. Most over 20+ weeks.. I had twins. My first pregnancy, I was raped and had no clue I was pregnant until 27 weeks. They were so low I didn't show like st all. It looked and felt like bloat. I couldn't feel my babies moving. They came into this world so tiny. I was 15 years old. My mother didn't know anyone to know about the babies so my two of my aunts adopted my son and daughter. They are separated now. My babies. They never see each other😭 I see them as much I can. My son knows I'm his mommy. My daughter, she thinks I'm her aunt. I'm ok with that. My babies are gonna be two this year😫 I'm missing so much. I want my rainbow baby. All my friends have babies. All these women on here are having their rainbow babies. It's just not fair. I pray this month my period doesn't come and instead I get my rainbow baby! Period is due in 4 days husband and I are not expected my period and have pregnancy tests ready for when I'm late. Please let this be my turn.