lovin on a boy

Boys can really suck sometimes. This boy i love im waiting till next year to be with (underage) 
Every little thing he does just drives me insane in such a weird way and im just sitting here like why
What am i doing? 
He knows me better then anyone else which is amazing also...he knows when something is going on.
I just get kinda scared too though, i really hope that he is seriously down for me.