So (like most gay people) when I was young I was attracted to other women but I didn't think anything of it or think of myself as gay, because I wasn't having sexual thoughts and if I did I wouldn't think of them as gay or straight. And through the first half of high school I dated guys and it wasn't awful, but I started to become more aware of my sexuality and that I leaned toward women and after thinking I'd come to a conclusion I came out as a lesbian. As I'm getting older I am realizing that it is more likely that I'm bi, as I enjoy sex with men also and just hadn't discovered that before. The problem is I had already come out as a lesbian so I didn't come out a second time (bc who's business is it), but I was telling my friend about a night with a man and she appalled and said "I thought you were gay!" And I said I am, to which she said "No you aren't, you were with a guy, aren't you straight or bi?"

Anyway, because I'm just attracted to people in moments I'm so f*cking sick of the terms and being required to have a label because if I'm not feeling women for awhile then people think it was a phase and if I'm not feeling men then they think I'm not bisexual. And the terminology is also expanding, so saying you're bi, but then realizing (like I am) that you're pansexual opens up your sex life for criticism from people (both straight and lgbt) who are just DYING TO KNOW your label or people who are like "you never mentioned it!" I'M OVER IT. I shouldn't have to "mention it" because unless we're going to have sex, WHY DO YOU CARE? My issue isn't calling myself pansexual or being "out", it's not like I keep it a secret, my issue is having to call myself something in order to be valid, and this goes for the lgbt community too. And it's not an issue of not accepting myself bc I know who I am and I don't feel the need to explain to myself who I am. The only reason I have to figure it out is because other people want to know, but IT'S NO ONE'S BUSINESS.

LET ME BE QUEER IN PEACE.