Witch would you pick in my shoes????

Dec-8-2016 have my forth baby. A beautiful lil girl her name astrid Alexandria. At 36weeks 2 dats and she was 5lbs 3oz. Looked completely heathly. Durning delivery she passed away. All test shown they could find put why or how but said what cpuld of happen nothing forsure. Anyhow im 32 weeks and dr wants to have this baby girl. At 35 weeks. Oh and i choose the same dr in hopes hes already know have more information idk. I also see a high rick dr everyweek. Not constant never the same dr.. these days idk. We watch her practisie breathing and watch her heart. She is measuring 3.05. Grreat. And i monitor her kickes every hour. Still dont know. No choices feel ok. Im scared. I know the small ricks at 35 weeks however i know the big ones also. I also am scared of playing chance. I couldnt gp threw that again. I need this baby to live..