Decisions (Edit- Decision was made ❤)

Just need to ramble. Found out I'm pregnant after a miscarriage last month. My Fiance and I are making a decision about what we are going to do this weekend. I'm on the fence because this month we've hit a rough spot with bills so I'm not at all confident. This would be our first so everything is terrifying and unknown, I am pretty petrified. At this point, I'm considering a medical abortion. He feels like we might be able to swing this and make it work (though he has his doubts too). The thing that is kind of reassuring is that if we keep it and things don't improve monetarily, I could let someone adopt them (which hurts to even type). I don't know if I'd be able to. But if I had to and they would have a better life, I would.

Pros of keeping- great family support, my fiance and I are an awesome team, wonderful learning experience, A CHILD, Parenthood, development of I and my fiance's self, and enrichment of life.

Cons of keeping- raised anxiety, baby comes first, higher stress, potential for disagreements, SO MUCH MONEY, say bye bye to me-time, lots of life adjustments, and lack of sleep.

This didn't help terribly because I'm still unsure. If anyone else can share their story, that would be lovely. I will ignore any religion driven comments about prolife, that is not my belief.

I made this a while ago and though it is old, I still get comments. I've decided to keep them and things are going well despite having severe morning sickness! I'm already in love with them, more than I was when I made this post. I would have never made a decision out of fear, just love.