I'm more depressed right now than I've ever been. I've had it for 4+ years and it's never been this bad. I think everyone hates me, including my parents. Everyone thinks I'm okay though. My dad is emotionally abusive and yells all the time. My mom sticks up for him. I need them but they won't listen to me. I want to die so bad. There. I said it. I just want to end my suffering. Nobody would care. I just want to be done. I'm tired of being treated like shit by everyone.