I don't know what to do about college. I'm so stressed and depressed. I have worked so hard the last 4 years. It has. Higschool has been hell I had no fun just work. My friends turned into bitches after 2 years so I don't  have any friends. I worked so hard and didn't get into the colleges I wanted. I got into cal state nothride which I don't like because it's too big and I'm afraid what people will think if I go there because of how hard my school is nothrige is considered a school for dumb people. I got into cal Lutheran which i like better but it's to far because I want to live at home and it's a lot of money. My top choice was lmu and my second was Pepperdine but I only got waitkisted for lmu and didn't get into Pepperdine and even if I did get in I prob would not be able to afford it. I don't know what to do i have worked so hard for nothing. All my friends are in good colleges and are so excited and I'm prob going to northridge but in embarrassed and scared what people will think. :(