Before 2017 started, I made up a choice to change my whole lifestyle and get more active. I began to exercise 4-5 times a week and by the first month I lost about 4 pounds. I continued to maintain that lifestyle and soon after lacrosse season arrived and now I added practice to my activity schedule I guess lol. I was pretty satisfied when I lost weight. I mean 4 pounds is a lot to me but I've come to realize that I kind of don't care about how much I weigh, it's honestly just my physical appearance. I hate to put myself in that mindset that looks matter but like it's not bad to want to change yourself a bit. At this point, I haven't seen physical changes since I first started to work out (January 1) and I know it's only been 5 months but I feel like I should at least see minor changes. Although I'm pretty good with working out, I realized that I should really focus on my diet now. But the problem with this is that I'm 14, can't really go out and buy my own food because strict parents, my mom makes food for me because she barely trusts me using a microwave, and even though I'm trying to stop binge eating, it's not like the amount of unhealthy food around me is helping at all. My mom's pretty healthy not gonna lie, but she still buys food for us and most of the time they're not healthy but I end up craving them and eating a ton. Then there's my dad.. could honestly care less about his health and eats unhealthy a ton brings a lot of unhealthy food home after work and surrounds me with just bad food and it leaves me ending up overeating and it sucks. I just don't know what to do and I want to start eating healthier. I want to eat enough and satisfy myself and not limit everything on the menu. I don't want to be stressed when it comes to food but my diet has been pretty poor lately and I really need advice.. hopefully this makes sense lol yikes 🙈