Being Fat

Ceymone
My boyfriend keeps bringing up my weight. He asked me to loose 10Lb for him and to run with him. I was okay with that, but the other night laying in bed he was playing with my fat. He asked me if it hurts and if I like it. I sometimes it makes me feel uncomfortable but I don't think he means for it to be harmful. But on top of that my mom calls and tells me I need to loose weight because I'm gaining to much weight. I do sometimes think I'm ugly and over weight, but other days I believe I'm beautiful. In all honesty it's stressful to keep hearing people tell me about my flaws and it makes my self esteem low. I don't feel sexy for my boyfriend and I'm scared to eat around my mom because she's always telling me I eat to much. I need advice to loose weight and how to be happy. This is me