VENTING

Last year October, I had an abortion. I was seven weeks pregnant. I would have been due next month. I would have had a little person in my arms and I probably would have been the most happiest person in the world, but I'm not gonna have that because I gave up being a mom at 22 because I was too scared and too worried about what people would think about me. I was too scared that having a baby now would ruin my plans and goals. I was too scared to be a single mom. I was too scared that my child would grow up without a dad and I know too well what that feels like. The fear and embarrassment I felt while I was pregnant doesn't compare to the guilt and sadness I feel now. I would give anything to go back to October and really think things through. Not a day goes by without thinking of my little unborn child. The innocent soul I forced my body to reject. I'm a horrible person and I can never forgive myself. I just want my baby back!