I've been dreading this day...

Tomorrow, may 4th, 4 days before my birthday I was supposed to become a mother, on this day I was supposed to hold my beautiful child my husband and I created. Instead I get to go to work and I'm supposed to forget that tomorrow is the day my life would have changed forever..I've dreaded this day since the day I miscarried, I don't even want to celebrate my birthday, not to mention Mother's Day is next week. I don't even know what to feel anymore. It still hurts so bad. 😭👼🏼