punished...

I feel like each month of trying for a baby and it never happens that I'm being punished for sleeping around years ago.. 
all my hubby and I want is just to be blessed with a baby finally and it's never gonna happen.. 
If you pray, please pray for encouragement and strength for me. Pray that we can get our baby soon. I'm at a total loss and just done with myself right now... 😭😭😭