I can't

Tomorrow is Mother's Day and well I had a stillbirth . I feel like crap because I know everyone is going to forget that I was going to be a mother , I mean do I even count as a mother ? I feel so sad because everyone is going to get showered with love because they're kids are alive and physically there while I'm here hurting reminiscing on the day I had to say hello and goodbye to my dead son . Oh god I'm sorry I just needed to vent .