Okay so 3 years ago I was sexually assaulted. I haven't told any of my family. My current boyfriend knows. We have a son together. No matter how hard I try I can't forget it I feel disgusting and awful and guilty for never telling my parents I never reported it and since I moved in with my boyfriend he lives like a few miles away he's a free man and the thought he's just round the corner makes me sick to my stomach. I recently keep dreaming of it and having flashbacks and they are awful how can I forget this once and for all?