my 1st chemical pregnancy....

Kiara
I don't understand....I woke up excited this morning to POAS bc AF was due today and I had no signs of her coming at all. At 9,10 and 11dpo I got all faint FRER. I was like "yes, this is my month!! We did it!!" I get up, POAS (or 5 smh) and they're all NEGATIVE. I wipe and there's a couple spots of really light pink blood and my heart just breaks. I guess I just have to sit and wait until AF rears her ugly head full force and try to remain calm until next cycle. Why is this so hard??? I have 2 healthy girls, 1 miscarriage at 5 weeks in December....now a chemical. 😩😩💔💔💔