But I digress. The point of this post is that once I came across the dip, ~OBVIOUSLY~ I felt the need to continue opening drawers to see what else might be hidden. His bed has drawers for clothes beneath it but I'd never seen him open them to take anything out, so I checked the first one and moved some things around and sure enough I found two empty boxes for butt plugs hidden beneath some old tee shirts and athletic shorts. The next drawer had a medium sized metal safe that needed a number code or a key to open. At this moment, as would any girl who has been cheated on in a previous relationship, I had the thought that maybe he was cheating. I'd never seen the toys pictured on these boxes before and they weren't anything we had bought together. I was devastated for the three minutes it took me to remember that my boyfriend actually loves me a lot, and could never bring another girl into his house without his mom knowing it. So my next thought was that maybe they were something he had gotten with a previous girlfriend (meaning they would have to be from over two years ago), and I could just ask him to throw them out, along with the toys provided he hadn't already. 

Well at this point I was nervous as hell for him to come home, because I hate confrontation first of all...and also that he wouldn't believe that at first I wasn't snooping around his room just looking for something to be upset about. I texted him that there were some things we needed to talk about, pretty much just as he was pulling up to the house. I followed him to his room and laid out what I had been doing all day, how I planned on setting his clothes up in his room for him, but found some secret things instead.

At first he was kind of on edge about me bringing that stuff up outright, but he didn't accuse me of going through his things or being crazy. He immediately softened after that, and explained that his friend who spent the night after having too much to drink left the dip at his place.

So I went ahead and asked whothr toys belonged to...and he replied that they were his. I was slightly shocked, but only for a minute, and then I was just hurt that he had never felt like he could be that open with me about kinks like that. I knew that he occasionally would like a finger up there or whatever and had done that for him plenty of times. I love our sex and I think it's hot to get him off in any way that I can.

He went on to say that he never told me because he "knows it's weird, and didn't think that I would be okay with it". He even asked if I was mad at him for having them (the answer to which, was obviously no). I told him that I love him and I am fine with it, even though I don't think he truly believed me at the time.

The more I thought about it over the course of the night, the more fine with it I became. Like he and I have used toys in the bedroom before --on me...but why should I be the only one who gets to play?

I decided I wanted to take part, but later when I asked him to get out one of his plugs so I could suck his dick while he used it, he said no because he wasn't comfortable with that. I was a little upset because I want to make him happy, and if it's possible, to make our sex even better so I told him that. All he said was that right now I could make him happy by not pressuring him to bring his toys out only hours after finding out about them. I guess that's fair, but I just hate feeling like he hid things from me because he didn't think I'd be down for it...it's like it has brought us further apart slightly and I want the opposite of that. 

Ladies, how can I make him feel more comfortable in this situation?