I'm a guy and I'm posting on here cause I want a woman's point of veiw on what I should do

I was dating this girl for a year I love her so much we moved in together for 7 month and at the end of the 7 months we got into an argument I yelled threw a shirt at her I was being stupid but she ended up buying tickets to California 2000 miles away from me and her mom and dad  to go live with her grandmother who had cancer and take care of her due to the fight I apologies and we made up for the most part but she still wanted to go she told me we could do long distance that she loved me and everything following up to her flight to leave

A week later she broke up cause ( so much going on right now she didn't need to worry about a bf) another week of no contact and I asked if I could get my stuff from her moms that I left she said she would give it to me when she came back in 4 months and ended up telling me that the reason she left was cause I abused her which I never hit her the most I ever did was yell when I was mad and throw that shirt the last time we argued so I stoped talking for a while and apologize later that month and thought I could make it know how sorry I was 

We ended up talking again (continently when I started talking to another woman) and she said she was just having mental breakdowns and she wanted to see me when she came down in July the past month we talked on the phone for 2 hours every night and she said we're back together but not officially then she ended up saying she just wanted to be freinds cause she didn't want to worry about me with girls and I worry about her with guys (yet she still kept asking what I was doing with who and if there was a girl all the time) then she kept being on of / an ass to me then last night she told me she she has tickets to come down on my bday it's officail but still ignoring me

 so I texted her a message saying she should apologize for that or just don't text me anymore cause I couldn't take the I love you but ignoring me on purpose 

And she sent me this text 

"Lol. The honest truth I've only had feelings for you like the first month we were talking not even dating but your so crazy I felt like you would do something crazy and you did to me. But I took the heat and now with you I feel unstoppable so anytime someone I know Is trying to talk to you I step in because I know I can take your bullshit and they don't have too. But now I'm not scared anymore. I'm happy to let this all out. Your fucking crazy and I was an idiot for taking your crap but now nothing will bother me with you. You fucked my life up, you were abusive, so yes I played with your heart. I'm a cold hearted bitch to abusive guys."

And posted this on Facebook "Everyone keeps asking me why I moved to California and there for the longest time I was scared to say. What really sparked me into coming was I was in an Abusive relationship and now I'm okay with sharing. If you ask him he wasn't abusive it was me, so I'm guessing getting stuff thrown at you, getting screamed in your face, and also having a gun broken in front of your face because his mad at you.. isn't abusive. But taking it and not telling anyone is abusive. But I'm the one who came out on top. I've made a better life and made a lot of friends. Don't ever stay in an abusive relationship because it'll never get better. If anyone needs to talk about what there going threw I'm always here."

I never thought I abused her if I did I was sorry I love this woman I planned to marry her and now everything is so messed up WHAT DO I DO

ps she's now coming down in a month to see her mother