stressed and depressed

I'm almost 3 months pregnant and I've never been so depressed. My baby's dad who I've been dealing with for almost 3 years has made being pregnant harder than it already is in my situation. He keeps pushing for me to have an abortion. At first it was bc we're young and not ready to have a kid and have enough problems in our relationship among the fact that he thinks I'm selfish for keeping it and I'm ruining his life. Now it's also bc he decided to start talking to another girl after he'd already known I was pregnant and he blames me for the fact that this possible new relationship is gonna be ruined.But it's gotten harder bc he continuously says the most hurtful things that just adds to me being sad and stressed. But last nightthe most hurtful thing he said was he hopes I die giving birth and I'm already beyond scared. He said it's me or the baby pretty much.Never thought the person I loved the most would wish death on me. I'm so tired of feeling like this. I haven't been this depressed since my grandma died 6 years ago. My mom and I don't have the best relationship so I can't even talk to her bc she doesn't know. So I'm kind of alone in this besides the few friends I talk to and my sister. Could I get some advice on how to deal with this. I'm drained