I wanted to share this because I'm so proud of myself 💖

This is my perscription that my doctor accidently perscribed. My plan was to keep it, I've had it for three days now, kept it because hey, that was my ticket out of here. 
I spoke to my counsellor online, told her I had this, she spoke to me, didn't judge me, showed love, and told me there was a light at the end of the tunnel, okay so it took nearly half an hour, but I finally came round to ripping it up. My heart was racing so hard, and I know when I'm suicidal I'll be so angry with myself. 
I get really suicidal, to the point where my psycharchist has given me medication that I have to take to make myself pass out so I don't end up killing myseld. But I'm so happy and proud right now. That was such a massive step for me. 
I feel like I've made a tiny little dent into recovery now 💖