I swear!!! If I get one more invite to a baby shower for someone else's bundle of joy I'm going to lose my shit!! Call me evil, jealous, mean, heart broken...whatever but it's getting to the point where I'm not even happy for others anymore. After 3.5 years of this HELL All I feel is "why her and not me" "when is it my turn" "will I ever be a mom" "another baby shower...uugghhhh!" I hate who I've become and with 36 creeping up I just don't know how to get through this anymore 💔🖤