2 losses

I had a miscarriage on Xmas eve of 2016 at 10 weeks 5 days. I got pregnant again and just came home from my scan at 8 weeks 5 days and the baby is gone. I don't understand, I am so devastated. I'm literally hiding in my bathroom on the  floor drinking wine out of the bottle while balling my eyes out while my husband distracts my 3 year old. I am so sorry to all you mamas going through this 😭💔