I want to start this post by saying that I have no right to feel this way, but I do and I need to vent. I also want to add that my SO is a very selfless person. He's responsible, hardworking, and excellent father. He helps with all housework and childcare without complaints (as it should be). So here is why I am a little upset but mostly disappointed. He went away for 9 days to visit his parents (they are up there in age) who live in another country leaving me with 3 kids by myself. Can I handle it? Absolutely. Will I die? Don't think so. But I'm going to be exhausted. Our youngest is 5 months and still wakes up 3x a night to nurse.   He is also at a point where he wants to be carried all day. It just took me 2 hours to put him to sleep and I know if I move he will wake up. I have to wait until he is in a deep sleep to then get up and put the other two to bed. The older two are 4 and 6 and while they can do their own thing they still need a lot of care and attending to. I knew he was going away before he booked I'm just not the type of person to lecture or tell an adult what is right and wrong. He offered to take the older chilren, but I couldn't justify paying upwards of $1000 in plane tickets when we are on a strict budget as we are saving for a home. Idk maybe I did it to myself. While he is away he will be joining some friends at an upscale resort for a couple of days. In my eyes he let me down. I would never in a million years put him in this situation. If my LO were sleeping through the night or at least 12 months I would be more at ease, but I know it's going to be an exhausting 9 days for me. I keep telling myself that I don't have a right to feel this way because he has a valid reason for going, he's always working, and even though we are on a budget he rarely ever spends on himself. I want to add that I'm a strong woman. I know I can do this, I just shouldn't have to.  If that makes sense. Thoughts?

Misha: 🤣 makes me feel better. I could go away for a weekend, but that would put him in the same situation as I'm in now and I wouldn't do that. 

Monique: We could've all gone, but it would be expensive for the 5 of us to travel. We do it at least once a year I just don't want to this year.  Saving for a house is more important. 

Trouper:  In his defense, the resort stay was planned way after he bought his ticket. He figured if he's already over there then why not. He does deserve it. 

Selina:  Perhaps you didn't read where I said never in a million years would I put him in this situation.  I actually went away last month for 3 days. I could've left him the baby, but I didn't. Thought it would be too much for my SO, so I took the baby with me. Not exactly a relaxing getaway, but it was the only way I would feel comfortable going.