Guess I am just desperate. Just got a new job working in home care. I'm super excited about it and so ready to get back to what I love. My fiance and I now both have full time jobs that we love. This makes things so much easier to be trying for a baby. It has been a year with no luck but I still have faith it will happen when it is meant to. However that doesn't mean I am patient, that I'm still working on but maybe not actively as I am sitting here with my butt up the wall hoping to help these sperm swim their way down(my friend got pregnant doing this so why not). It seems everything is falling into place. On average we have an extra 1500 dollars a month and are still buying things we don't really need. I am getting excited to see this happen for us but it will happen in due time. Just trying to understand when I became desperate enough to put my legs and butt up the wall after sex. Does help the cum not fall out when I stand up though