Antidepressant/antianxiety

I think after years of anxiety, panic attacks and bouts of depression it is time I get on something. I have been against it because I don't like putting chemicals in my body, I don't like side effects, and my mom abuses prescription drugs (she is currently hospitalized for trying to overdose). Please tell me your success stories with starting an antidepressant or antianxiety. I am so hesitant , but I need to get passed these anxiety and panic attacks.