How I deal with depression booking holidays I can't afford

I'd been feeling really down and depressed. Then came my period so that made me so much worse. Guess I should be taking my medication

I've gone back to being reckless, they was really cheap to be fair only £30 for a return. Day trips I've found cost more than that.

Would it be really irresponsible of me to leave the country and not tell anyone even my mum. Mainly because I don't want her to know how reckless I've been.

Anyone have any tips on saving money, I kind of just needed to rant and have no one to talk about it to