Sleep training hell

Kelly
My baby is 11 months old and I'm trying to get her to sleep in her pack n play in our room. She screamed for 45 minutes and after patting her on the butt for a little bit i got her to fall asleep, finally. And then i coughed, and shes up screaming bloody murder again 😨😭 I feel so awful for doing this to her but I've tried to do this on 3 separate occasions since she's been born and never followed through with it and she's slept in the same bed as us since she was born and nursed herself to sleep for naps and at night and I can't do it anymore. God I feel awful for just letting her scream.